Very Quick Post

OK...it's 9:30 and I am finally done with all of the school work and tasks for the day...except making bottles...but we'll let Cody handle that one.

Today was a rough and long day. I left early to get things that I had left undone on Friday...leaving with Cameron giving me the sweetest smack on the lips...so...yes...I left crying, which is not an unusual was to start my day! We had a meeting until 5:00, so I didn't get home until dark. Then started the dinner making and so on. So, how much time did I have with the kids???...oh...about thirty minutes. Sooo....you can imagine that I am not in the best of moods.

To top things off, Cody asks me, "Why do you have to be like that...always negative???" Geez...I WONDER.

I know that I should be counting my blessings...and I do...but I must admit that lately I am a bitter soul. I pray often for the Lord to help me with this, but it always seem that I end the day mad at the world.

I'm tired, bitter, and...well...longing for things that I can't have.

Due Date is In!!!

Oh, well! Let's face it! I am not going to be great at blogging anymore. This month has been so very hectic!!! I have had numerous parent conferences, staff meetings, and, well, there has to be time for family!!!

That is what is mostly on my mind these days. Time for family...doesn't seem like there is enough time in the day. Right now, the kids are with Cody's parents. This has become a Friday night ritual. They let the kiddos spend the night so we can get some sleep. Then, on Saturday morning, we jump up and clean house and rush to get them. We don't get that much rest, but we are so very thankful for what we get!!!

Anyway...I digress...time for family. Let's see...I leave for work early in the morning...sometimes I get to see the kids and sometimes I don't. I usually get home late. I run in, say my hellos, hit the kitchen, cook, and then clean up dinner. That doesn't leave me much time with the kids...which I am becoming very frustrated with. Now, don't think I am this wonder mom....what I come in and cook is not grand...BUT...the kids are now eating table food, and I HAVE to come in and cook something...instant potatoes...WHATEVER. After dinner, Cody and I take turns taking showers before we put the kids to bed...because after we put them down we have bottles AND my school work to do. So...there is never ANY time. I am so stinkin' tired!!!...of everything. I've become a rather glum individual!!!

On the bright side, we have a very healthy 19 week baby in the oven!!! Everything is looking great!!! We have even scheduled a delivery date. There will be NO guessing when this baby will arrive! April 4th is the date...rather ironic since my sister and niece already share this same birthday!!! This will be my first day of spring break. We are excited...but I am very nervous as how we are to manage...physically, mentally, financially. Times are tough...ugh...I sound like a grandma!!!

So, I am vowing to try to do better with this blogging thing!!! Until next time...

I've Already Fallen Behind!

Oops...I'm not nearly as good at blogging as I once was. It's been a whole week since my last post, and there's so much to tell! Last time, I promised that I would write about the kiddos and life back at work. Sorry...I just have not had the time....and I really don't now. So, I will quickly give a run down...

Well, it would take an eternity to tell you how wonderful Faith and Cameron are. Yes, it has been a long road, but they are just...well...WONDERFUL. They are developing quite the personalities, now, and they are so much fun. They will be nine months October 14th. At times, it does seem like time has flown by. At others, I can remember the long months of just trying to get by, an endless routine of bottle making, diaper changing, and pacing the floor!!! I can't describe how beautiful they are, and, well, most people don't want to hear a proud mama bragging!!! We are still blessed with a wonderful sitter that comes to our home as I go off to work to my 20+ other babies!!!

Work this year, has been much more tough. I am now back in a regular classroom, with all of the usual stress. I have been completely exhausted for months, and I am so thankful that Cody is such a great daddy...often fixing bottles when all I can do is crash on the couch. I frequently cry in the mornings on the way to work, because I feel immensely guilty for leaving the kiddos. I also become very envious of all those stay at home mommies!!! When I was home all summer, I thought, "Man, hats off to these stay at home moms!!! I don't see how they do it!!!" It was really hard. Now, back at work, I see how working moms have it that much harder...and I'm having a hard time managing it all!!! Now, I'm gonna have to do this with THREE!!!???...lol!

Ahhhh...well...that's all for now. Cody is fussing and telling me to get off the computer. It is late for me, and he knows that I will be all too tired in the morning if I don't get to bed. See, I told you he tries to take care of me!!! :)

Yes...It's TRUE!

First of all, I guess that I am officially back! I took quite a break from blogging! It was definately not that I did not want to, but more along the lines of that I couldn't find the time or energy. So, you might ask how I am going to find the time and energy to do it, now. Well, I am not quite sure if I will or can, BUT I am most certainly going to try! I'm hoping to start back blogging in order to vent about AND share the many events of our lives. In the past, I've been really honest in my blogs. Some find it interesting and funny. Others may just find it simply boring. Sometimes it might also sound as if I am a complainer. Whatever it is I think, I pretty much say, and, for me, that makes blogging worth it!!! It's MY time!!! So...HERE IT GOES...

I'm sure that many are most interested in our current news. Yes, it's true. I am pregnant AGAIN. WOW...that's pretty much the reaction I get. It's funny because I've said that most people seem confused as how to react. They don't know if they should congratulate me or say that they are really sorry!!! That doesn't bother me...I totally get their reaction...you might be interested as to how I reacted.

Well, I was still out for summer vacation...enjoying my last few days of freedom. I had that strange feeling that something was NOT right, and I KNEW that I was. A trip to WalMart, confirmed my...well...fears. Yep, I wouldn't say that I was overjoyed, but a small part of me was a bit excited. Cody was more shocked than I. I had already come to terms with it, as I KNEW in my mind that I was. I was definately not optimistic that I would carry the baby for long, almost certain that I would lose it immediately. Afterall, I had not taken any medication as I had with the twins. So, the many weekly visits to the doctor began, and, presently, we have a very healthy 12 week baby.

We are excited but truly anxious. We have had a very blessed but tough 8 months with the twins. Adjusting to motherhood and fatherhood with TWO, has been trying. I remember when I first found out the news, I cried. I felt like we had just turned a corner with the twins. Both are so healthy and happy now. They can entertain themselves. We are about to start all over. The babies will be only 15 months apart. Finanacially, we are a little concerned, as well. We have quickly learned how expensive babies can be, and, well, adding one more definately does not make things easier or cheaper!!! Physically and emotionally, I am already drained, so I am somewhat concerned about that. I keep telling myself, though, that God will not put anything upon us that we can not handle. Plus, the kids will be a little older, and one baby has to be easier than two at once!!! Cody tells me that we can do anything...and I know deep down that we can. I thank God for Cody...he is such a good daddy, and he supports and helps me more than anyone could ever imagine.

For now, that's about all. I will post additional blogs later today to update on the kiddos and life working.